you're the one who came to me after it was over. you did. you checked in, you tried to help.
and i tried to talk to you. i tried to tell you what i wanted and you pinned me to a wall. you told me i was full of shit. i thought that was it, we were done, and then you show up and save my life and act like
fuck it.
i'll fuck off. all right? so leave me alone. don't act like you care and then act like i'm somehow the one who's out of line for giving a shit too. i was an asshole. i ran away. you gave me everything i could have wanted and i bolted. but i can't hate myself for that forever, and it's pretty clear you hate me enough for both of us.
take care of yourself, all right? that's all i fucking want from you now. just take care of yourself and i'll leave you the hell alone.
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Date: 2018-07-30 02:47 am (UTC)To know what the fuck you want from me.
You ended things.
You.
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Date: 2018-07-30 03:01 am (UTC)and i tried to talk to you. i tried to tell you what i wanted and you pinned me to a wall. you told me i was full of shit. i thought that was it, we were done, and then you show up and save my life and act like
fuck it.
i'll fuck off. all right? so leave me alone. don't act like you care and then act like i'm somehow the one who's out of line for giving a shit too. i was an asshole. i ran away. you gave me everything i could have wanted and i bolted. but i can't hate myself for that forever, and it's pretty clear you hate me enough for both of us.
take care of yourself, all right? that's all i fucking want from you now. just take care of yourself and i'll leave you the hell alone.
(no subject)
Date: 2018-07-30 03:05 am (UTC)[John sends the message before he can ask Poe what he wanted from him before.]