[It's a lot to process, but John processes. Understands.
He doesn't want to picture what all that was like from the eyes of a sixteen-year-old girl, no matter where or when she's from. John's seen hardened men and women cave under less.
There are no words. Nothing he can say will undo those losses, or take away the pain she'll carry inside of her the rest of her life. Scars can only fade with time.
Moments like these, he wishes to god Teyla, or Elizabeth were here, someone who would know what to do in a moment like this. On this terrain, John is at a disadvantage. He barely knows what to do with his own emotions.
So John does what he can do, which is pull her into his arms. She's so small, and in some ways, so fragile, that John is almost afraid to hold her. Chyler the soldier is strong, loyal, and competent. He would trust her to hold any line. Chyler the girl is someone he's only beginning to meet, both sweet and vulnerable, and it's her that worries John.
Chyler the soldier might kill her in order to survive. Just like John the soldier killed John the man.
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Date: 2018-03-20 12:49 am (UTC)He doesn't want to picture what all that was like from the eyes of a sixteen-year-old girl, no matter where or when she's from. John's seen hardened men and women cave under less.
There are no words. Nothing he can say will undo those losses, or take away the pain she'll carry inside of her the rest of her life. Scars can only fade with time.
Moments like these, he wishes to god Teyla, or Elizabeth were here, someone who would know what to do in a moment like this. On this terrain, John is at a disadvantage. He barely knows what to do with his own emotions.
So John does what he can do, which is pull her into his arms. She's so small, and in some ways, so fragile, that John is almost afraid to hold her. Chyler the soldier is strong, loyal, and competent. He would trust her to hold any line. Chyler the girl is someone he's only beginning to meet, both sweet and vulnerable, and it's her that worries John.
Chyler the soldier might kill her in order to survive. Just like John the soldier killed John the man.
Truth is, one can't survive without the other.]
I'm sorry, Chy. That sounds like hell.