[John's silent for a moment, looking away. He didn't think he was being obvious. John's used to flying under the radar, his thoughts and feelings going undetected. It still startles him that Poe can see him, somehow.
He's even more startled that Poe seems to care, and is willing to change his plans to suit John's needs. That's a first. His family, the military, and even his ex-wife, everyone drops him when he's not the man they want him to be. John tries, but he's scared to try, too. He doesn't want to fail and still be left behind.
Some part of him expects Poe to leave him, when he's not the fun night Poe wants him to be. It's not like there's a shortage of people who are ready and willing to be with Poe Dameron, and John knows he's not the only person Poe trusts.
But Poe did say they didn't have to. Left it up to him to decide.
John squeezes his arms tighter over his chest, scuffing a sneaker against the pavement.]
I'll give it a shot, but... are you sure you don't want to do this with someone else? I don't know if I'll like it. What if things go south?
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Date: 2018-03-04 11:53 pm (UTC)He's even more startled that Poe seems to care, and is willing to change his plans to suit John's needs. That's a first. His family, the military, and even his ex-wife, everyone drops him when he's not the man they want him to be. John tries, but he's scared to try, too. He doesn't want to fail and still be left behind.
Some part of him expects Poe to leave him, when he's not the fun night Poe wants him to be. It's not like there's a shortage of people who are ready and willing to be with Poe Dameron, and John knows he's not the only person Poe trusts.
But Poe did say they didn't have to. Left it up to him to decide.
John squeezes his arms tighter over his chest, scuffing a sneaker against the pavement.]
I'll give it a shot, but... are you sure you don't want to do this with someone else? I don't know if I'll like it. What if things go south?